Its been a long tyme i last touch the pc & chat online via msn.Talked to Ali,Lan,Wan,Su & Adi.

I also change the skin of ma blog.Still tryin very hard to revamp it.I wana sumting fresh & vibrant..Juz lyke me..Bt too bad i m not dat well versed in html etc.Will try my very best to keep it unique & nice till i m satisfied

Neway i gota chat wif Adi todae.He is still e same notie guy as far as i can rem.
Always teasing me.I dreamt of him daes ago & start to tink of him aft dat.Neva did i expect to b chatting wif him 2dae.
Who is he till i cant forget him & y his name is always on ma mind? Is he reali dat special to me till nw?Aft dat drem, i digged out all ma foto albums,see his fotos & recall back as much as i cld bt him.When suddenly tears roll dwn fr ma cheeks.
I realised the feelings for him is still der..I must admit..

Ma sis told me dat he saw him holdin a gal's hand at Jr Pt recently & both Nizam & her saw them wif their own bare eyes.Seriusly i hold back ma tears wen i heard it & i duno y.While i was cleaning ma bedrm daes ago i saw a vcd which i made before i met wif an accident.Its a gift i've made for him which i supposed to present him on his bdae last mth.

I watch the vcd & its a collection of our fotos 2gether we once shared.I watched 2gether wif ma sis & she told me dat its tyme to let him go & let him hv the lyfe he wana.He has found the one & the fact is dat he has move on.

My sis admit to me dat she actuali saw the vcd & it was written,Hapi 29th bdae Adi 30/04/06.She actuali waited for the dae to pass to him personally since i m nt well during dat period bt decided to hold back wen she saw him wif a gal holding hands juz one dae before his bdae.He didn't even admit dat was him claimed my sis. Hw cld he juz denied wen both Nizam & my sis saw him & the gal juz rite infrt on their eyes.

Dat was the story behind it & y the vcd is still in ma hand till nw.

I decided to keep it instead.A collection of our fotos 2gether,the memories of us etc.It is sumtink i noe i can neva hv it again.Its the sentimental value being compiled to vcd.Touchin kan..Sejak biler aku jadi mina jiwa jiwang nie!!

Memories will always b memories.Wen i read ma blog for the first tyme,i was so shocked wen i realised every entry of mine here is always bt him.Who is dis Adi?
Only den i realised hw much he meant to me in e past,who is he & the guy who i neva stop or jelak mentioning his name every single dae.
Maybe its

Bt its all in the past.Tings hv changed & its useless of me to tink back bt him & the past.Watever happens is all history.He has found the one & I hv oredi concentrate on other tings nw.Recalling or remembering my past again will only hurts me further.

Nw i am befriending two guyz who i can say,i might consider goin serius.I m nt gettin younger & i hv to make up my mind soon.
One is a chinese guy & the other is a mly guy.The chinese guy named Darren whom i get to noe durin ma therapy.Holdin a gd position wif the Air Force.Sumone matured,charming,understanding & alwayz givin me the suppt i need in a fren.
The other guy,Rizzal is reali a wonderful guy whom i can neva find in anyone else.
His patience & character reali makes me enjoy his company.Dis guy luv me alot and sumone whom i noe will always b der for me.
guyz for being wif me

Will i be able to find ma path & being in luv all over again? I dun noe..Mayb i will ended lyke Adi too..Able to find the one i've been searchin for..Mayb i wun..
Juz a matter of tyme for me to answer dat question.