wow...da lama jgk i didnt update ma dear blog.Been bz wif werk,studies n ma social lyfe..

Last sat went to Momo wif Adib,Fatyah,Zi etc.Upon tinking back wat happen last wkend makes me wana smile n laugh.I fainted at Momo last wkends hahaha..though i must admit i m juz abit tipsy n cld still control.Bt wat happen last sat nite reali makes me reluctant to club again n it was the worst nitemare i've ever had thruout ma entire lyfe.

Mula2 i started to feel very dizzy n blackout so i tell myself to ctrl n afterwich i fainted n in a world of darkness for abt a minute.During dat moment, i tot i wana to pass away cos i cld see notink,ma brain stop functioning all of a sudden n all i can feel is hands pulling me away.Wen im finali able to open ma eyes, i saw Adib,Fatyah n Zi pulling me away n it was their hands who is struggling to carry me away fr dat plc.

Oh ma god, wat is happening to me? Bt wat happen last sat makes me realise dat age is reali catching up on me n i m no longer the person who is able to handle ma nitelyfe dat well.

Aft dat nite, i becum very serik.Also i've not been resting n sleeping well last fri n dat makes ma blood pressure goes really low.Damn i becum the clown of e dae..Marni FAINTED in a WELL KNOWN CLUB!!! Fcuk...Ane aku nk ge letak muka nie wif ma fwenz who were der wif me!!

I cannot follow the pace of ma fwenz who r much younger den me.Ma tyme da over to do all dis stuff.I no longer hv the energy of a young adults n i must admit dat i m reachin ma mid twenties nw n ma enery i used to hv few years back da exhausted.
I m no longer young sad to say n admit.....

I started clubbing since the age of 12 zaman2 octagon n fire tea dance n as wat ana say to me is true.We started too early back in our young daes n nw our energy level da expired n its tyme to let the younger generation hv dat kind of lyfe we used to hv years ago.

Haiz..wat can i say..Zaman aku nk njoy,minum n club hv to end here i guess.Bt I gt no regrets as i used to hv dat kind of lyfe n njoyment previously n i tink its tyme for me to rest n chilled rather den having those late nites.If reali i wana club, i make sure i gt ample of rest n for certain occasions only.

Aft dis ma wkends will b very simple n straight.Im able to spend more tyme wif ma non clubbers fwenz nw.

I decided to focus on other tings nw n occupied myself wif keja2 yg lebih afdal n berfaedah.

Mayb agreed to date Zed?? He has always leave a very gud impression of himself to me.He is a gentleman,respect myself n he neva mentioned anytink bt his late fiancee again aft dat nite.Sumone who seldom or stop talking bt the past aft the confession makes me feel great n gud.Dat kind of person dun even give me the chance to remind me of ma past,stop me fr talking bt ma past relationship,failures etc.
It is the attitude dat makes me going,a gud example to lead me upon the ftr n to let go of the past.

I tot of giving Adib a shot at first n ignored other guyz who came to ma lyfe bt after being wif him for more den 3mths,i always feel so little n sense of nt being appreciated by a fwen.I may nt b the gal dat has so much space in his heart bt sumtimes even we r juz a normal fren i do wana to feel appreciate n sumone who noe hw to take care of ma feelings.

Afterall im a LEO.I tends to bury feelings n nw i feel dat its tyme for me to draw a line bet me n adib.There is a few reasons why i decided nt to contd wif dis complicated frenship.If we stick to each other lyke superglue,it wun b fair for both of us.May hes usin me as a companion to subsidue his sadness over Tita n mayb for myself he is juz a close fren of mine who enjoy his company.Bcos of Adib i gt to see the world of nite lyfe again n get to noe a wonderful fren,Fatyah.I m thankful.
Tks Adib...U deserved sumone better n younger den me

As his gud fren,he gt ma backup n blessing in watever he do.

So tell me where shld i start nw hahahahahaha...................???
Settle ma credit cards bills,alot of bills yt to b settled,able to rent a condo of ma own by March nx yr,open a saving acct,completed ma studies asap n of course to climb up the corporate ladders of ma career.Dats ma wish for nx year resolution.
HmHm if along ma journey i mit the rite guy,i m all outz to open ma heart once again.

I missed the daes of being pampered,sumone who dotes on me,able to give me a real hug, a sense of luv n security,give me watever i wants hehehe,quarrel wif me over small tings etc.
I simply missed those daes...